ALONE

Holidays are going on,
work pressure is less,
relaxing on my patio,
with coffee in my hand.

No conflicting thoughts,
neither diabolical nor divine desires,
no melancholy,
no joyfulness,
only there is a feeling of being alone.

My father, my inspiration, always with me,
my mother cares for me,
my brother loves me,
my friends respect me,
i share a joyful bond with all
but still i have a feeling of being alone.

No pecuniary problems,
no hard to fulfill desires,
still i don't know why i have this feeling.

When i am on field,
pushing myself for one more round,
that monstrous feeling vanishes
but after a tiny stature break it haunt me again.

Tries to enjoy slow songs,
most lines hit me as i am alone.
when poetic lines surrounds me,
they came to me and say that i am alone.

When problems tries to raven me
i didn't feel weak,
 i step up and hit them hard 
but i always surrender in front of this feeling.

Many times i suppress that feeling 
but its like the pressure builds and 
it is now again in front of me with a thou times force.
it is yelling at me saying you are alone.

It's like an abyss,
where i tried shouting,
only echo i hear is i am alone.

This doesn't mean i didn't enjoy stuff.
i can remember those new seconds on my plank,
i enjoyed the strange case of Dr jekyll and Mr hyde,
i can recall that seamless bicycle ride,
i can recall enjoying my web series over the night.
But some shred is missing,
saying i am alone.

It is the same feeling
 when you are jogging in soothing wind 
and you are enjoying the coolness taking birth from blend of sweat and wind,
but my friend that wind is opposing you also.

I don't know,
i am looking for something or maybe for someone,

I think i want to like the feeling of feeling alone,
because getting rid of this does not seems to be a option.

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